Lustful Dreams

2006-06-27T06:32:08Z

title: Lustful Dream
author: blkeyes_redlips
rating: Pure Smut
summary: It's a dream I'd re-live over and over again.
disclaimer: I own nothing sadly. I found this on my computer and forgot about it.

Standalone

My eyes became heavier by the second with the feeling of sleep washing over me. A tiring day of recording certain songs over and over again got on my last nerves, than a staff meeting bringing me to a bore and my current state. Shutting every curtain and door I let myself sulk in the medium dark of an afternoon. Certain cracks letting the sun peer through yet not enough to disturb me. My eyes dragging lower and lower as the room around began to fade into black.

“Joely…mmm…” a voice echoed within my ears stirring me slight from my sleep. The feeling of my body rises back to its normal state yet a sudden feeling of being weighed down stopped me from letting myself move around. My eyes slowly opened at the same time I felt a pair of lips attack me, sucking, licking behind my left ear forcing my eyes to close yet again.
The weight, the body I know upon me shifts moving itself higher bringing itself to sit directly on my waist as its tongue and lips slowly make it’s way down to my neck where by instinct my head moves allowing more access where I feel myself being ravished by the unknown.
Gulping, regaining strength my eyes softly open seeing that the room was still dark, the very smallest of smalls of the cracks letting the sun peer through. My eyes move down to the body holding me down, refusing to let me move as I take in the shadowy figure. All in black I say nothing other than gulp when I hear its voice again.
“Mmm…Joely…” my eyes shut close as my mouth hangs open as the voice stirs within me sending butterflies to the pit of my stomach knowing that raspy yet soothing voice anywhere.
“A-ahh…” my voice trails off forcing itself out of nowhere when I feel my entire body being lit on fire with the thoughts roaming in my head, the fantasies, the daydreams, the thoughts that help me through certain nights alone. Slowly I lift my hands the persons shoulders feeling the broadness, feeling the muscles flex as I feel their finger tips ghost down my stomach slipping under my shirt I was too lazy to change out of.

I let my fingertips trail down the shirtless back as I let them feel the smooth, soft skin with slight bumps do to the tattoos that consume it. I let my mind rest as I let my body surrender to the touch of the fingertips sliding up my stomach pushing up my shirt as it process up higher, up to my chest. “Ah…” I slightly yelp as I feel my nipples have been clenched, so good.
My eyes open slightly, through the small slit I look in front of me as the lips detach themselves from my neck letting the sight of this mystery man who is no more as their face, their eyes stare into mine. My heart skips a beat yet racing at a rapid pace, my mind fills with nothing but sinful thoughts sending shooting pains of pleasure arousing my southern parts.
Eyes so dark yet filled with so much love, life, lust I drown in them instantly. Watching them daily through the huge glass window of the studio while recording, watching them while the countless lectures of staff meetings went on, watching them as we played show after show melting me from inside out. The eyes I knew so well, the eyes I’ve grown with, his eyes. Benji…my sweet Benji.

My chest beats rapidly as I stare into his eyes I lift my upper body up as he slides off my shirt tossing it carelessly to the side of him never once breaking his eyes from me. Exposed to his sight I lay back down as I feel his hands roam from my stomach to my chest lightly brushing over my now hard nubs letting my eyes close instantly. I feel his body weight shift a little yet with another rush of pleasure ran through me when I felt his lips, him breathing beside my ears I gulped.
“Relax Joely,” I feel one hand travel down south grasping on my belt buckle, slowly yet skillfully unlatches it letting it free as it slightly echoed in the darkened room. “Relax baby.” I feel his lips slightly ghost my ears as his raspy voice shoots my mind in a whirl. I lay there for his use, I lay there with my eyes closed trying to regain my breathing back to normal as I feel both of his hands unbutton and unzip my dickies I also refused to take off.
My chest rising and falling at the thoughts racing through my head as I feel him lift himself off me for mere seconds sliding my shorts and boxers at the same time down throwing them off to the side leaving my body openly exposed to his chocolate like eyes. The pain rising in my groin I let my eyes slowly open to see his eyes set on my lower half his eyes travel up me to meet mine letting me see yours glistening in the dark. He lean forward latching our lips onto one another in a rough yet soft manner letting my pierce less lips drown into your silver looped ones, letting the cold and warmth wrap around me. Your tongue grazes my bottom lips letting them fall into a smile as they opened wide for access. You wasting no time darting your skilful tongue to dip in battling with mine as the feel of a desperate need of searching one another. My hands flow up your back slowly caressing it letting one hand rest on the back of your neck bringing you as close as I possible can to deepen it, I need you., I want you.
My breathing hitches with your sudden movement of grabbing my cock in your hand slowly pumping me as we shove our tongues against one another battling for dominance. I feel your hand move down to my base reaching higher and higher till I feel your thumb light flick the tip sending a wave of moans escape my lips into your hot mouth making myself pant. You repeat this action causing my head to swirl and my abdomen to clench forcing myself to detach my lips from yours as my head falls back letting my eyes roll to the back of my head. Such please, such sinful pleasure.
“Feels good baby…” the only response I’m able to give were deep moans escaping me as my breathing grows rapidly. “So good.” I hear your voice so soft as your lips move down my chest, kissing and lapping at the skin till you reach my belly button do you dip your tongue in for a swift moment as your hand halts at the base of my now fully erect cock. My eyes slowly open peering down as I watch your eyes gleam up at me before looking down at my manhood.
“Baby…” unsure if it were audible enough I know you know as I watch your tongue dart our instantly coming in contact with the tip letting my head fall back my eyes falling shut while you repeat it once again before I actually feel you take the entire top half into your mouth letting moans escape me like nothing before. “God Benj…” I let my hands wonder to my sides as I grip the sheets feeling the coolness of your lips rub and down against me as you sucked, nibbled and licked making my chest heave and my mind to whirl. The familiar feeling rising throughout my body as I could feel the sudden produce of sweat rising on my forehead.
With enough strength I let one hand travel down towards you, letting it brush through your newly dyed black hair letting my eyes somewhat open to see the beautiful sight before me as I watch your head bob up and down licking and taking in as much as you can. I try my best not to buck forward but spasm I do a couple times before I felt your hands rest on my hips holding me down as you pull of slowly letting your metal rings mix in with the warmth letting my head to fall back down as I feel you suck on the tip before letting me go altogether.
My eyes slowly open as my hand falls from your head to my side as you lean forward catching my lips onto yours forcing your tongue into mine letting me taste the pre-cum that exerted from within me only in my mind do I make up my mind I want more than this, so much more.
I slowly pull away letting our lips teasaly fall apart as my hazy eyes open staring into his reflecting the same feeling I was feeling throughout me. “I want you…” I pant as I suck in more air. “In me…” I finish as his eyes studies me more before crashing our lips against one another letting our tongues battle it out as I felt his body half moving around a little before I felt his boxers brushing over my skin lightly that he undressed.

My heart racing, anxious of him to go on. He pulls away as his top half turns to the side of my bed to the small drawers. I let my head plop back closing my eyes with the pleasure rushing throughout me I heard him rummaging through the drawers before the sudden quietness surrounding us. My eyes open to rest on his staring back at me. Silence rests around us before you dart forward latching our lips together yet again. My hands dart to the back of your head as I deepen it our tongues if possible touching the back of one another’s throats, I need you, I want you. I pull away with the thoughts you filling my head. “Benj…please…” I pant as you try to inhale enough air. You grab what you were rummaging for, the lube, I have no secrets from you as you unscrew the cap pouring a fair amount into your palm before tossing it off to the side like the rest. You scoot more down sitting on your knees as you lean forward yet before you could do anything I lean forward scooping some onto my fingers and leaning forward touching you.
Grabbing you I wrap my gel filled fingers around your cock as I watch your eyes close shut at the sudden new sensation. I smile inwardly as I let my fingers coat you moving up and down, adding pressure making sure not to miss a spot purposely letting my thumb press down on the tip making your moan with your mouth hanging open. Lust fills me more with the reactions of you as I will myself to stop as your eyes dart open with nothing but animalistic lust forms over them. I smirk as I let myself lay back down yet you waste no time darting forward crashing our lips together letting our tongues once again you moving more forward as you deepen the kiss with no complaints from me.
As I feel suck on one of you piercing I suddenly feel an intrusion making me slightly uncomfortable, your finger coated with the gels sooths the uneasiness, than again you make it go away faster. I lap my tongue with yours as I feel another finger enter and I gasp when you add a third pumping them in and out of me letting my head fly back, god was I ready. I moan as you continue it, my moans streaming as I feel you brush against that spot making me scream slightly. I can hear you groan at the noises I’m making so I instantly feel your fingers leave me as I feel you shift letting my eyes to open enough to see and feel you open my legs a bit wide using your hands you put your weight on holding them apart I watch as you gaze down at yourself as you direct our hard, coated, erected cock into my tight hole. I watch gasping with my eyes flying shut at the sudden feeling. Pain endures as I yelp causing you to stop, waiting for my response. I breath steadily as you continue me wincing as I finally feel you’re all the way in.
You don’t move an inch for a few seconds as my eyes lightly open looking through the slits of my hazy eyes do I feel you start to slowly pull out before pushing back in. My mouth hanging open as you repeat this over and over again holding my legs open as my head falls back my hands finding the sheets beside me as I feel you to start moving a little faster pace, slow still yet increasing.
Your slow movements are driving me insane. “Benj…please…” I beg as I feel your hand leave my thighs letting them wrap around your bare waist as I feel your upper body on me again weighing me down slight as our pelvises were up against one another burying yourself deep inside me. I open my eyes as much as I can seeing your hovering over me using your hands to hold you up as I feel you pull out before suddenly slamming back making me howl.
My mind whirls as our bottom halves work as one, you thrusting upward as my hips move against yours causing you to go deeper with me brushing against my prostate do I scream again, your name. “Benji! Fuck!”
“Err…Joel…so…fuck.” Your voice so low, so raspy it sent shivers throughout me as I let my hands free of the sheets placing them on your ass helping you along as you wail. My head thrown back I can slightly hear over the barrings of pleasure the bed creaking, the skin on skin contact as they hit one another with your fast pace bringing me closer and closer to orgasm. The feeling of you stomach rubbing, smashing my swollen dick causes me to go into fits of pleasure.
“Benj…so…fuck!”
“God Joel…yes.” You collapse on top me using your elbows to help keep your balance as you rocked your hips in and out of me hitting me dead on making me scream.
“Benji! Oh god…” I moan when I feel you suddenly stop all movements letting my eyes fly open at the sudden action when you look down in between us you pull out leaving me cold yet at the action I see before me I give no complaints. I watch you sit up holding your tired self up I watch, seeing both our cocks dripping ready and waiting to explode. Gasping for air I watch you lower yourself, dry, slamming onto my cock causing the wind to be knocked out of me my eyes flying wide open before shutting tightly.
“Fuck…” you groan as I slowly feel you start to move, bouncing up and down upon me letting a deep moan escape me. My lust filled eyes open as my hands are placed on your hips guiding you along as the sounds of skins being slapped against one another are echoed throughout the room as your head tosses back with your mouth hanging open eyes closed.
I somewhat shift a little as grasp onto your hips driving mine into yours making you holler. You begin to bounce up and down like a never ending roller coaster as I slam into you with the tight feeling in my stomach starts getting to me more. I knew I was close and from the facial expressions and occasional grunts escaping you I knew you were too. One hand left your hip as it was darting for your erect cock staring me in the eyes you stopped me. You brought both your hands lacing them with mine as you leaned forward putting our hands behind my head as you stopped moving causing me torture. My eyes open looking up at you as you stare back down with those lust filled eyes.
Than out of nowhere I start to feel you move your hips in small circles getting bigger and bigger. In one swift movement you swirl you hips hugely bending my dick within you my eyes clasping shut at the pleasure rising and rising.
“Benji, fuck…” my head is thrown back as you do it again feeling your stare bore into me I can’t hold on any longer as you bounce once again causing me to erupt inside deep with you screaming your name. “Benji!”
“Fuck…” you groan at the feeling of me spewing into you, you bounce again riding out my orgasm as with all the strength left within me I let one of our hands go reaching down grabbing a hold of your base as you continue to bounce up and down you screaming as I hit your prostate quickly jerking you off brushing my thumb over your tip as you bounce once again before slamming down on me letting everything you had escape onto my hand and chest screaming my name. “Joel!”
I shoot up my chest heaving as my droopy eyelids open looking around. My mind hazy as my vision starts to clear. What the fuck? I look around feeling all stuffy and sticky. My eyes fall closed moving a hand back yet I feel something slimy. Slowly opening my eyes I look down seeing my now limp cock dripping with comb and the sheets under filled with it.
Ugh god…not again. Slowly do I get up shaking my head to wake up do I go off stripping the bed and stepping into the shower cleaning myself off.

“Baby?” I hear as I exit the bathroom wrapping a towel around my waist. I look up to see Angela, my girlfriend, looking around the room before her eyes landing on mine.
“Yeah?” She smiled walking in more with a phone handing it over to me.
“It’s Benj.” I felt my heart flutter and my breathing to choke as I swallowed hard.
“Oh, thanks.” She nodded smiling turning back around heading out of the room.
“I’ll be making lunch downstairs when you’re hungry come get some okay?” I nodded as she walked out into the hall hearing her feet descend down the stairs as I put the phone up to my ear.

“Hello?”
“Hey Joel.” I feel my heart flutter at the way my name rolls off his tongue.
“Sup Benj.” I moved over sitting at the edge of the bed trying to regain myself even though I’ve mastered it by now.
“Hey are you and Angela doing anything for dinner? Tia and I were wondering since- Benj, Ryan’s crying again can you take care of him for me please?…Sure babe…Joel man sorry, you guys doing anything tonight?” I cringed at the sound of Tia’s voice with my heart sinking down deep within. I could hear him rustling some things around before I could a hear baby’s voice in the background, with Benj talking to him sweetly. “Joel?” I shook my head snapping out of it.
“Oh…um, I don’t think so.”
“Cool than why don’t we go out to eat or something? We’re getting a sitter and so we’ll all get together.” I couldn’t but laugh a little. “What?”
“Man I just saw you this afternoon.”
“Awe like you can’t get enough of me anyway.” There’s so much more behind that than he knows.
“Yeah.”
“So we’ll see you tonight than?”
“Yeah.”
“Okay than *crying emerges* I’ll see you guys tonight.”
“Okay, hey Benj?”
“Yeah?”
“I love you.”
“Love you too man.”
“Bye.”
“Bye.” I let the phone fall from my ears as I stare at it for a few moments before pushing the button to hang it up. He’ll never know the burning passion raging throughout me every time I stare I at him through the huge window of the recording booth, the times we’re in meetings when we’re silently talking to one another of how boring they are, the times on stage where both him and I can zone into our own world where no one understands but us. In a world of own where we’re together, yet in the world I loose myself into are the forbidden dreams, fantasies…for fucking sure I’ll be visiting there again later tonight.

Perfection

2006-06-27T01:40:45Z

title: Perfection, my only hope
author: blkeyes_redlips
rating: It's just the fluff.
summary: I’ve seen perfection. I know perfection. I have perfection wrapped around me.
disclaimer: I own nothing sadly. I have no reason why I wrote this other than I needed to write something. It was just an urge and boredom mixed into one.

Standalone

Perfection

The Adventure

2006-06-27T01:38:37Z

Title: The Adventure
Author: blkeyes_redlips
Pairing: Benji /Joel
Genre: AU
Rating: R, NC-17
Summary: My job is to take the lives from the names I'm given. His job is to save the lives before they're taken. My life is like an unwritten passage in a blank book. His are shown through his eyes and the actions that he does everyday. My thoughts are depressing bringing any smirk to a frown and my feelings are numb. His are bright and were born to stand out while bringing smiles to others. Where does the term, the feeling of love fit between us? Life has always been unpredictable.
Disclaimer: As fake as the tits on my neighbor's dead beat daughter. Barbie lives.
Dedications: To those eyes who skim through each word that I type.

Unfinished

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The Ripples of our Hearts

2006-06-26T08:23:12Z

Title: The Ripples of our Hearts
Author:blkeyes_redlips
Rating: R, NC/17
Genre: Drama, Romance
Summary: Benji's got a secret that's slowly tearing him up inside. Joel's harboring the similar pain and he's not sure he can take it anymore. De-nile isn't only river down in Egypt. From ex-girlfriends to the riled thoughts of society what will these two do before they finally come to the terms that all they need is each other's hearts.
Disclaimer: Don't know, don't own and all that depressing stuff.
Dedications: To everyone =)

Unfinished

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Such a disrupted balance

Lustful Dreams

Perfection

The Adventure

The Ripples of our Hearts